btw para not all meditation involves stillness, your intricate resto of small bits for your van is meditation if you try to let your mind 'empty' and you focus on 'now', your breathing, you're surroundings etc I bet you meditate more than your aware, and 'erb free
i am not going to go into everything that has happened to my family and i on here (some people know) - but its been a pretty rough year. probably no worse than things others have been through / and are going through. what i was try to put across (maybe not so well) is its all about finding what makes you smile.