I had a Doka, my plan was to chop up a dandy dart and put it into a lightweight bottom box and chuck it on the back. I ended up selling it to buy a split project I couldn't resist. I still do fancy doing it, I think it would be awesome.
Almost , thanks for the support there is light at the end of the tunnel as they say, and my mental health is on the mend ...looking forwards to the future.
Been truthful I don't think it goes away, it is how you manage it and how appropriate your coping mechanisms are.